Conscious Efforts

In a fit of rage I yell
On top of my voice.
My Adam's apple bears the brunt;
The decibel level reaches a high;
The listeners' ear drums take the strain.

In the fading moments of tension and wrath
I regret shouting at my mother,
I regret losing my cool.

Patience - a saintly virtue
Should I adopt,
For fury is not worth my time,
Fury is not a worthy emotion.

Umpteen resolutions have gone in vain,
Countless "sorry"s have vanished in thin air,
Making me regret, regret
And do nothing but regret.

I admit I'm imperfect,
But I'm ashamed
I don't make an effort
To change my self,
To behave as to not regret later.

With oodles of grit and conscious efforts
Will I try my best to achieve what I need.

After all,
Rome was not built in a day.

The P(F)light of a Pegasus

My armour is as hard as my heart is soft
Many an arrow and lance can it bear.
Flapping my wings I try to soar aloft,
Such mighty plumage is highly rare.

It's made of hope and mad perseverance,
Its span is great and unimaginably vast.
It sustains the heart's patient penance.
Forever and ever does it last.

My wings are for flight,
My feathers for beauty.
They always shine bright.
For, protecting me is their duty.

My wings have taken me faraway
Bringing beautiful terrains to my view.
In one of them forever I wished to stay,
As the experience I gained was something new.

I can go there now only if I'm invited.
My past memories I'll cherish.
Of those I'll get reminded,
At times till I completely perish.

Oh! God..

I said to God,


"I cry and cry
Till my eyes become dry.
I laugh and laugh
Till I get into a fit of cough.
I'm always in the extremes,
That's how I am.

An emotional scene,
Never fails to bring a tear.
The thought of my future
Does invoke my fear.
I'm always in the extremes.
That's how I am.

A beautiful girl
Makes my heart beat fast.
Yet the feeling is shortlived,
It does not really last.
I'm always in the extremes.
That's how I am.

When I love somebody
It's of the highest order.
When I hate somebody
I don't even near their border.
I'm always in the extremes.
That's how I am.

This absence of equilibrium,
Makes me falter a lot,
Revealing to my self,
The bad qualities I've got.

I know this isn't good.
I badly need to change.
This is the umpteenth time I'm saying,
"I badly need to change." "


God replied,


":P"